It’s 2:18 am December 16th 2010!.. Yet another sleepless night… So far I’ve had two cups of coffee, listening to Crystal Bowersox’s new album, I gotta say it isn't bad… Favorite song is Arlene, it’s got that country vibe to it!..
It’s been 4 months since I’ve posted, and I have no clue where to start… hmm first off I like to say RIP to my aunt, you will forever and will always be missed… This past month has been hard, you have always been there for me and my family… You were the only one who cared, and loved us… I will never forget who you are, you always inspired me, you always acknowledge my potential to succeed in life…
As for my mom, I love you… I’m sorry you had to go through yet another tragedy this year, I’m sorry for the way I acted towards some family members, I’m sorry for those family members who have treated you unfairly, I’m sorry I’m not always there to help, I’m sorry for yelling, and screaming for no apparent reason, I’m sorry for not forgiving my brother, I’m sorry I’m so stubborn, I’m sorry for all the reasons I should be sorry for… I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me, your the greatest mom any son could have… I love it when we listen to music and start laughing for no reason, I love cooking you my delicious tacos you love, I love it when you can’t remember things, I love it when you get mad at me, I love it when you can’t stand the smell of fish, I love it when you talk loud, I love it when you embarrass me, I love it when you make me jealous, I love it when you get angry when I talk about my brother, I love it when you make me cry…
Dad, your awesome, I know it’s hard for you to live with family that doesn’t acknowledge you… for that I’m sorry my family is selfish, I’m sorry it’s hard for you to express your self, I’m sorry I can’t support the family the way I wish I could, I’m sorry your always paying the bills in anyway possible, I’m sorry I can’t always be the one to pay the bills, I’m sorry I’m such a pain to live with, I’m sorry our family is struggling, I’m sorry I’m spoiled… Hope you can also forgive me, you’re the dad every son wants to have… I love the way you can’t always understand me when I talk fast, I love it when I drive you everywhere, I love it when you can’t say no to people in need, I love it when you make up names for people, I love that we don’t agree on all the time, I love it when you get mad, I love it when you spoil me, I love it when work hard for the family, I love it when you tell me stories, I love it when you teach me songs, I love it when you teach me how to prey, I love it when you teach me how to be the best son I can be…
Sister, hmm what is there to say?!.. I’m sorry you lost your dad, I’m sorry I such a pain, I’m sorry I’m stubborn, I’m sorry I’m always getting you in trouble, I’m sorry for always telling mom your prego haha, I’m sorry I’m always teasing you but I love you for always being there for mom, I love you just cuz u always get me in trouble, I love you for being the crazy and loveable sister, I love you for always telling me your feelings, I love you for being my sister, I love you for coming back to mom, I love that you always acknowledge my dad…
Brother, although we hardly ever get to communicate with one another, I love you… You’re the only brother I have, and I’m sorry you lost you dad, I’m sorry I’m not always there for you, I’m sorry I’m not the brother a brother should be, I’m sorry I’m so stubborn, I’m sorry I can’t forgive you just yet, I’m sorry I don’t talk to you, I’m sorry I’m not the uncle your son should have, I’m sorry for being your brother… I love you for being there for my sister, I love you for saying “I love you” to mom, I love that you gave Uncle the son he always wanted… Despite what you think of me I LOVE you, I know we both will forgive and forget and move on… I hate not having a relationship with you…
Well hopefully this doesn’t come back and bite me, it's 3:33 am now, and I’m still wide awake, I’m sorry if I have offended anyone, I didn’t mean to…
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